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Wednesday, December 5th, 2007
9:05 pm - ...ouch?
My horoscope today, in short-

"...To prime you for this week's advice, I ask you to purge any tendency you might have to believe in cartoony notions of hell like the Pope's. That will free you to meditate on the possibility that we do in fact ultimately suffer for the pain we cause others. Not by being literally tortured in a demonic realm, not at the hands of a "devil", but rather by the ugliness we have unleashed inside us. It's a good week for you to spend quality time in your personal hell, Cancerian, making up for any hurtful or greedy or unconscious things you may have done in 2007. (P.S. You're not any guiltier than the rest of us; it's just a good time for you to atone.)"

Um, my hand was recently broken and is encased in a large, awkward cast that has impeded normal life as I have known it to be for the last year, and this week especially it has really been bothering me. I have spent many hours mulling over what led up to and caused the injury, and how I am at fault for what I am enduring. I've spent much time also thinking about pain that I may have brought upon myself and others lately due to my actions, or lack of action, even. It's been a wake up call, so to speak.

current mood: thoughtful

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Friday, October 19th, 2007
7:43 pm
Look at it this way: you may fall and break your leg...

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Monday, September 24th, 2007
6:44 am
Yesterday, while Shawn and I were riding bikes to the Baxter Ave Theaters, who should we run into but the mayor himself, all alone on his very own bike.
We had left the bumpy street in favor of the sidewalk for just one block, meaning to return, and as the mayor noticed this, he personally scolded us for not riding on the street.

Ah, but mayor, the street here has been stripped, which makes for very shitty, difficult riding.

He could do nothing but agree. Told. Haha, take that mayor. Anyways, it's good to see him actually out and about on bike and communicating with other cyclists.

By the way, I've been trying to find alternate routes to get up to Douglass Loop without taking to Baxter or Bardstown Rd. Most recently I've been favoring the Beargrass Creek path, and then the hill through Cherokee Park. It kicks my ass but it's do-able.

Saturday, I rode to Portland to check out Unique Thrift Store, and on the way back I happened to look out over the river and saw what looked like little sea-monsters sticking up out of the water. It was a pair of very large birds, one floating below the surface with only his long, sinuous neck sticking out, and the other spreading huge wings to dry in the sun. I noticed that other people were drawn into watching them and speculating about their identity. As we watched, one of them dove under the water, and came up almost two minutes later, far removed from where he dove. He resurfaced with a large, flapping silver fish speared in his beak.
Of course I had to look them up. I believe they are called cormorants. Prehistoric-looking things. Neat.

current mood: awake

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Friday, August 17th, 2007
11:29 pm
Painting again. I really caught the fever while stocking up on paints with the Severs...and especially since it's finally less than 100 degrees in this place. Too hot to sew, which consists of sweating profusely while perched on a broken milk crate, needle and thread in hand. So far I've made a halter top, a tank top, and a dress, but once I've finished making an item of clothing, I don't really feel much of an urge to wear it anymore. It just ends up in a corner, waiting. Yet I still want to sew more things...I don't understand this yet.

As usual, work is kicking my ass. I'm often ready for bed by 9 in the evening. I dream of danger and various versions of conversation I've actually had, as well as adventures on the bus. I dream about riding the bus a lot. Or work. And then I wake up and go to it. On the bus. How interesting.

current mood: content

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Tuesday, July 10th, 2007
11:04 am
I'm on my way to the dentist. I think he's going to pull all of my wisdom teeth out! I elected to stay awake because going under seems scarier than watching him perform the procedure, but it still sounds like half the nightmares I've ever had coming true.

Everyone says the same thing- "It's ok, until you hear the sound of your teeth breaking as they rip them out". Yikes.

current mood: contemplative

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Monday, July 2nd, 2007
6:04 pm
Sewing my own clothes....it's one of those things that I've been wanting to do, but put on hold for lack of a machine. Not anymore. I've discovered the joy of hand stitching. I taught myself five different styles over the weekend while holed up sick in the house. It's incredibly consuming and relaxing, and the best part is that you notice every little improvement you make. I'm almost done with my first piece. Of course I suck as of yet, but I love challenges.

And that was a crappy post, but writing on Livejournal is kind of hard to get back into. Working on it!

current mood: busy

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Wednesday, May 30th, 2007
6:51 am
Getting up at 6 am for work, especially after a late night at the Pourhaus, feels completely unreal.
Anyways, saw the band Fast Piece of Furniture last night. I must say that they have a much better sound live than on their record, just as suspected. Actually they seemed like a very different band playing the same songs. I wish the show had been promoted more, but for a Tuesday evening after a holiday the 15 or 20 people that showed up were surprising.
Ugh, does it mean one is getting old when one can't quite handle a late night out?

current mood: drained

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Friday, May 25th, 2007
6:48 am - Ignorant question....
Ok, is a MEME called a MEME because it is all about the person answering it???

current mood: awake

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Wednesday, May 16th, 2007
9:52 pm
Today was my last twelve hour work day (for the rest of the summer, at least). A reason for me to celebrate, once I get some sleep.

current mood: tired

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Monday, April 30th, 2007
6:04 pm
For the first time in years, I have a real bed!!! I sure as hell didn't want to get out of it at 6 in the morning for work though!

current mood: chipper

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Monday, April 16th, 2007
8:51 pm - still the same phone number, though
Gosh, live journal, it's been awhile..

Shawn and I moved to Butchertown on a whim...and it's been...interesting. Life in the Highlands without a car is just fine, but life in Butchertown without a car is slightly inconvenient. Or somewhat so. So there, the main complaint about this place is out of the way, and otherwise I like the neighborhood. I can tell it would be a great place to be a bike rider. People have mostly been friendly (though there are several huge scary dogs around). It's beautiful, in ways, and I love being balanced between downtown and the Highlands. And as much as I love the Highlands, having lived there throughout much of my life, I see now that I needed to get the fuck out for a while. Whew.

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Tuesday, April 3rd, 2007
5:35 pm
badonkydonk

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Monday, March 5th, 2007
5:50 pm
I live in Butchertown now. Yay.

current mood: content

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Sunday, November 5th, 2006
2:01 pm
I feel like the only thing I can do right is not smoke cigarettes and show up to work every day. That old cliched saying-feeling like the ground is slipping out from beneath you...Yeah. I feel really panicked about something and I don't know what it is.

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Sunday, October 8th, 2006
10:08 pm
bran flakes are the only kind I like, thank you.

current mood: annoyed

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Saturday, October 7th, 2006
1:03 am
Meghann is making me spaghetti and pesto toast. How awesome is that?

current mood: shocked

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Thursday, October 5th, 2006
9:16 pm
I don't know how long they were planning it but both of my cats leaped off of my second story porch and escaped, within a week of each other. Since they were strictly indoor cats, they weren't wearing collars. Stupid irresponsible me. Anyways, it really sucks to have your pets disappear on you suddenly (or at all).

current mood: lonely

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Tuesday, September 26th, 2006
6:22 pm
While babysitting recently, I looked through the resident music collection. Almost entirely recognizable, mainstream stuff...but then sitting smack in the middle of a pile of cds was Solution Unknown.

current mood: surprised

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Thursday, September 7th, 2006
4:08 pm
By the way I totally support Babcock's Chill and Grill on Bardstown Rd with its delicious Tattoo Burger.

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3:27 pm
Like a dummy I took off a whole week from one job but forgot to do the same with the other. So smack in the middle of vacation I had to go work for a few hours. I've been really broke this whole time-I couldn't even afford a $7 show last night. Even so I've done a few things that've made the time off worthwhile.

If it's windy on Saturday, I may go kite-flying at waterfront park or the lawn or whatever it's called. I have absolutely no experience or knowledge to back this up, but I'm kind of interested in kite building and battling. I read a book about a boy in Afghanistan who made his own kites and battled with them and it sounded like a lot of fun.

I went to a wedding recently and saw a bunch of cousins that I grew up with. I haven't talked to them in a few years, and in catching up I find that they're all graduated and fairly "successful". I put everyone off with the copout of "I'm taking a break from school" and it seemed to work. Then I knew that it was coming and I tried to ignore it, but I was feeling pretty fucking blue for a while afterwards. And I caught the bouquet without trying. Eee.

current mood: contemplative

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